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John the Baptist at the close of his life struggled with the possibility that he may have been wrong about Jesus. I read these verses and I am confronted with the fact that John is harbouring doubts where once he was possessed of certainty. It’s as if he is saying,

“Is there even the slightest possibility that I could have been wrong in what I have believed about Jesus?”

Then there is that account of the two disciples walking back to their home at Emmaus and, as they talked, Jesus caught up with them and asked what they were so intense about. They rehearsed the events and then owned their disappointment.

“…..but we had hoped that he was the one who was going to redeem Israel. And what is more, it is the third day since all this took place. (Luke 24:21 (NIV.)

Here we have another example where hearts are exposed and disappointment is undeniable.  As disciples, they had put all their hope on Jesus only to have their hope dashed on the rocks of the crucifixion.

Those who are regular visitors to Barnabas will have already guessed (probably before the end of the first paragraph!!) that the relatively recent death of my wife, Bev, has launched me into a process of the healing of my grief which healing continues to this very day and, I suspect, has a ways to go yet.

In fact, last week was the 2nd anniversary of Bev’s “going home” (she loved that imagery).

The process of Bev’s death has become the birthplace of questions that I have never asked before. No, that’s not quite true. I have asked these kind of questions before but not with the same intensity and application that I ask them now.

It’s one thing to seek theological answers to theological questions. It’s quite another to pursue answers when the questions come from our hearts, not our heads. 


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