PrintJOURNAL 89
22 May, 2016
Hi sweetheart,
Sometimes I experience periods of “What if…?”. These are times when my mind seems to become detached from what are “the sure promises of God” and drifts into unchartered waters of questioning those truths that we have believed with strong conviction for all the time we have been disciples of Jesus.
Yet since your death in April of last year, I have to confess that these “what if” seasons have come and gone with uncomfortable frequency. I guess it is the permanence of your absence and the accompanying silence that provides the setting for “what if” questions.
I suppose the easy way to deal with such questions would be to deny their existence and to simply quote Bible verses as though these periods were of little or no consequence.
Yesterday I found myself looking at your photo. No, staring at your photo would be more accurate. That’s not so uncommon. I love recalling your smile, your laughter, your beauty, your commitment. But I also became aware that some of those “what if” questions were making their appearance.
“What if I never saw you again?” The vast majority of people in our world who believe in life after death believe in some form of reunion with their loved ones beyond the grave. Such a belief is in no way restricted to the Christian faith. Why do we believe that? Is it because the Bible teaches it or because we want it to be true?
What do you look like now, my love? My mind goes back to the story of the Transfiguration and how Moses and Elijah (long since ‘dead’) were recognizable – presumably without name badges – by Peter, James and John.
What if I did not recognize you?
In my more enquiring moments, I find I can’t just dismiss these questions but I have to accept that in every area of life there are questions that I cannot answer. That is certainly true in this area of death and life after death.
Sometimes I think these questions become the playground of the devil in my mind. I think it’s OK to ask the questions. I would be less than honest if I ignored or denied their existence. But in the end, I have to turn back to the Scriptures and submit my questions to their authority and the final revelation when the Lord returns.
But until then…………
You remain the love of my life
Mike
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