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20 June, 2015
Hi Sweetheart,
Well, it is just 8 weeks ago today that we said our sad farewells and you were released from your body which had been almost rendered useless by Motor Neurone Disease.
Sometimes I just sit and think about my feelings. It probably doesn’t have to be said but I’ll say it anyway, “I MISS YOU TERRIBLY!!” What does that feel like for me? Actually it feels like you have just gone away for possibly a long time.
I don’t know what knowledge or awareness you have of life back here (if any) but I’ll just say that it feels like you have gone on a trip to a special faraway place without me. A place like Denver, in Colorado?!! I recall how much you loved that place and to live there would be like heaven for you.
But here is the strange part; even though you may be gone for a long time, you will be coming back!!
Let me assure you that such a statement is not the ravings of a man who is denying the reality of His wife’s death and who just cannot accept what has happened.
As I pondered these things earlier today, some words of the Apostle Paul came to mind:
And now, dear brothers and sisters, we want you to know what will happen to the believers who have died so you will not grieve like people who have no hope. For since we believe that Jesus died and was raised to life again, we also believe that when Jesus returns, God will bring back with him the believers who have died. (1 Thessalonians 4:13-14 NLT)
You are now numbered among thosewho are described here as “the believers who have died”. I like the translation which says “……those who have fallen asleep in Jesus.) So you can see that I’m not losing my mind or struggling to accept your death. You’re coming back when Jesus returns.
Now I don‘t know what that means for the relationship we shared here on earth. Will we still be husband and wife? Will we once again be a family, with our son, Philip, included in the family circle? I don’t know. But I can hardly wait to find out!
But until then
You remain
The love of my life
Mike
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