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• JOURNAL 69

  25 January, 2016

  Hello Sweetheart,

  In a recent letter to you I made a reference to “the deep well of grief”. While I’m trying not to analyse my emotions too much, I don’t want to miss any insights that might maximise my ministry to others. My greater need is to experience my emotional responses and to enter into the healing that comes with the acknowledgement of their reality.

  Karen came across this reflective observation which she sent to me yesterday.

  I had my own notion of grief

  I thought it was a sad time

  That followed the death of someone you loved

  And you had to push through it

  To get to the other side.

  But I’m learning that there is no other side

  There is no pushing through

  But rather there is absorption

  Adjustment

  Acceptance

  And grief is not something you can complete

  But rather you endure

  Grief is not a task that you can finish

  And move on

  But an element of yourself

  An alteration of your being

  A new way of seeing

  A new dimension of self

   

  “….Absorption,  Adjustment,  Acceptance….”  Three words that convey a world of understanding.

  I assume I speak truly when I say that grief releases dimensions of who we are that we never knew existed. That certainly has been the case with us. Although grief is no longer part of your experience now (I assume??), you experienced grief as the disease took over your body and we both grieved that loss. Yet there emerged from within you qualities that inspired so many of us.

  But Until Then

  You Remain the Love of my Life

  Mike