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    3 June, 2016

    If you were to read our journal entry for this day last year, you would read the following Today's instalment… [more]

  • JOURNAL 89

    22 May, 2016

    Hi sweetheart, Sometimes I experience periods of “What if…?”. These are times when my mind seems… [more]

  • JOURNAL 88

    17 May, 2016

    Hi Darling, Coming home from the hospital with a mechanical device fitted to my chest – a P.E.G. I think it… [more]

  • JOURNAL 87

    13 May, 2016

    JOURNAL 87 The doctor said I can go home this morning. The surgery has had the desired effect and this new means of… [more]

  • JOURNAL 86

    10 May, 2016

    JOURNAL 86 MOTHER’S DAY Hello sweetheart, I haven’t spoken to our children as to… [more]

  • JOURNAL 84

    20 April, 2016


    To the love of my life,

    Hello Darling,

    I need to tell you about a conversation that I’m having with our three children at this point in time.  I am missing you VERY much. That deep sense of loss becomes a gathering point for my fragile emotions. Things seem to be mounting up and I am not handling them well. If I need to go into more detail I can do that. But for the moment, I’m grateful for their commitment to me, their wisdom in how to alert me to things that I may not see.

    I would often tell others that I rarely read my own stress levels with any degree  of accuracy. But you always seemed to know what was happening with me

    Over the last couple of weeks Mr. Parkinson has begun to really exercise his influence kids are convinced that my symptoms are typical of someone who has been living with stress.

    They reckon the stress of Pastoral ministry over the last 40 years would be the long term basis for what I am currently experiencing. But the more immediate causes include:

    *My care of you during those final 12 months and watching you suffer

    *The trauma of losing my life’s partner after 51 years

    *The preparation of the first draft of our book, “Our Journey Through The Valley”.

    *The recognition of the 1ST anniversary of your death just last week

    *The surgical procedure that awaits me next month regarding Mr. Parkinson

    Their diagnosis? A very understandable build up of stress factors. As I thought about these observations, I recalled Paul’s remedy  for this kind of stress, written from a prison cell.

    “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.  Philippians 4:6-7 (NLT).

    Don’t worry about anything……pray about every thing….and God’s Will be done and his peace be experienced.

    But Until Then

    You remain the love of my life




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